Saturday, October 03, 2009

Well for all my poxing on about not getting a fill I lasted a week. When I went and had a Grand Angus burger from Mcdonalds (it was really good) I decided that after 2 years of the band I have learnt nothing and needed to get a fill put in. I went on Thurs to see Dr Fill and he gave me one till the needle couldnt get another drop in (8.9mls) and now I am so tight I cant have a drink AHHHHHHHHHH. For all those that read this you will be thinking Im nuts but you know after 2 years of this journey the thought of being able to just eat and not be in control or feel full is scarey. Its so easy to be a diet expert if you havent battled like truly obese people do and to be honest I am still one of those experts even when I cant get my own crap together. If someone says to me anything about dieting I give them a whole run down on what they should or shouldnt be doing only I cant get it together myself or take my own advice. I managed to put 4 kilos on in just over a week without the fill and for 7 of the 9 days I was really really good food wise. So I dont know whats up with that. Anyway I will soldier on and in a couple of days will be able to eat small and drink again. I am off to Qld in Nov to be a matron of honour for my friend. Very exciting to be going over there. So must get off to look for a dress. Blog you soon xxxx