I have a couple of days off work (woo hoo) so thought I would do a quick update. I am hovering around 103 - 104kg. I wish that I could stay away from the scales cos I know its no way to run your life or have your life run by scales but its also the one way of having some (hopefully) positive results from some hard yards. I aren't doing the whole band diet correctly and I definitely know how to cheat it if I want treats but I am also aware that I am only cheating myself so I do try to stay on track. I can eat a side plate size meal now which I am comfortable doing especially if it is a good meal of veges and meat. If I want to I can probably eat a small pudding after it but mostly I don't want too. If I really want something sweet like my beloved Christmas plum pudding I have it rather than dinner. I still find it very difficult not to graze but continue to keep trying. I caught up with a work colleague yesterday after three months and she was shocked at the difference in me. Its a buzz when that happens but I get a bit shy from the attention too. I stopped in and saw another friend the other day and she was also shocked at the weight loss. She is really struggling with losing weight herself and I felt so bad for her. I remember only too well what that desperate feeling of the tunnel with no light is like when it comes to trying to Lord over weight control. I saw my nut case mental sister (long story) the other day and she walked straight past me which was really exciting cos I didn't get her daggers like usual hehe. I am still trying to do the walking or biking thing but time passes so quickly that its often a day or two before I have another go at it. I walked home from the new train station yesterday which was the first time I had been there and so when I left the train station I headed towards the road via the car park but by the time I had got to the end of the carpark and realised it was all gated and I had to either hurdle the fence - ppfft yeah right or walk all the way back and around I nearly called it quits and jumped on a bus but I didn't. Well I'll be off now to sort out my son who is flying to NZ on Saturday to spend a couple of weeks with his Grandma and Grandad in Christchurch. Oh for some kiwi Fush and Chups!!! xx

Merry Christmas and all that.

Gidday. Its been ages since I last posted mainly due to it being Christmas and New Years.I survived it all ok although the scales have moved down they stuck hard and fast for a couple of weeks as punishment for not sticking to healthy eating (something that I am still struggling to get back into). Christmas for me is about Christ then FOOD. I do all the pressys and things but mostly after my faith its all about the food. I decided this year not to buy much as we had breakfast at my eldest sons place and dinner at my daughters so this was a good opportunity to not overdo it. However, I dont need to buy much before I start to 'overdo' it. Just the kids treats alone leave me enough scraps to 'go hard' and I just delve into the left over choccy stockings and eat up the cherry ripes which everyone hates even me but waste not want not is the Dianne motto! We had crayfish for breakfast Christmas morning. I must say I arent a great crayfish fan but hey it was there for the taking so I took some chew chew chew then woops sick! Sorry about the wastage son! Then came the pancakes and ............ burp yep that was a waste too. I managed to keep the bacon down and some juice. Dinner I did much better and found that the pork crackle slipped down nicely. After Christmas all the chrissy puddings and cakes became 70% off so I just fought and fought the urge to buy stacks of them and in the end I gave up the fight and bought 4 but.................two are still in the cupboard lol. Its a real battle to fight the old habits and urges. The quantity I can eat is remarkably smaller but I still try to eat more than I should before I take myself by the ear to the corner of the room and give myself a good talking to! I hope you folk all had great festive times and didnt over indulge too much. New Years was very dry for me which I dont ever feel too worried about mainly (apart from seeing others act like twats) I cant see the point in such empty calories when you can have Christmas cake and custard mmmmmmmmm. Andy and i have been biking as part of our new years resolution. After the last attempt of about 20kms I have had a couple of days break to try and get the feeling back into my arse. Well thats it for me. Will type again in a week. Happy New Year to you all xxx